****ing bad day...
Woke up late AGAIN today...
Haiz... Probably due to late night ytd...
Clare didnt wake me up...
Nvm la...
She's always tired recently...
Haiz...
Duno why oso...
Blame myself ba...
Not independent right?
Why must rely on others right?
Like forcing pple liddat...
Haiz...
Its been a long long time since i heard a cheerful and sweet good morning greeting...
Mebbe tt's y i have been getting off on the wrong side of the bed...
Haiz...
Like today...
Kicked the door...
Blady hell...
Got a big bruise...
And it bled...
Walked to the toilet dripping blood...
Faster showered and got things done...
Den fell down on the way to wear my shoe...
My notes flew everywhere...
And i got another bruise...
Haiz...
Headache...
Didnt reallie wana go work today...
But who gonna pei me?
Anybody gonna take care of me?
Gt class later somemore...
Haiz...
Bad start... Bad day...
Monday blues...
And thus... I m late for work...
At work...
Dozing off everywhere...
In the lift... Sitting down...
Even standing up too long oso doze off...
Even when i m peeing...
Haiz...
Probably i didnt doze off while walking...
Totally CMI...
Still gt class...
Sometimes i wonder if the pple who matter reallie cares...
I haven ate properly for quite sometime...
No appetite at all...
Duno how much slp i get per day only...
Duno wad is keeping me awake or alive...
Duno where my reserve energy is coming from...
I look in the mirror nowadays i dont even recognise myself...
I lost almost 4kg...
What have i become?
Nobody notices...
Haiz...
Reached home after sch...
Disappointed again...
Disappointed with life...
Disappointed with wadeva fate has brought me...
How much 勇气 must i put out in order to be the same again???
Haiz...
Juz wana say thanx to some frens who were there...
Who actually cared...
But the right person or persons have yet to show...
So wad's the point??
M i too ****ing demanding??
M i too ****ing obcessive??
M i too ****ing controlling??
M i ****ed up??
Mebbe i shld juz be more ****ing independent??
Mebbe i shld juz ****ing grow some balls and grow up...
Haiz...
I dont whether to be angry with myself...
Or angry at everything else...
I need a break from everything...
Life...
Work...
Studies...
I need my lighthouse by the sea...
I need my glass of warm milk...
Haiz...
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